The Night I Was Found - SINGLE RELEASED

Hat drawing by Kyle Alan Hobbs, single art by Buddy Mac

After YEARS I finally wrote and produced my own original song, and I am so excited with how its been received so far.

If you know anything about Marty Robbins or Johnny Western, you can definitely figure out where I get my inspiration. I wanted to write another western ballad that incorporates Mexican folk aspects. There's just something about Mariachi music that has always captivated me. It's one of the only genres of music that genuinely make me cry when I hear it.

I wrote this song while on a business trip in Seattle in the hotel room, and it went through many iterations. It was originally a 2/4 rhythm in major, but I couldn't help making it a 3/4. It wanted to be a Marty Robbins song so bad, so I let it be lol.

This photo is unrelated I just like this little fella. He is cute.

Some may know, I am deeply in love with Jesus Christ. I wasn't always this way. I did grow up in the church and often found myself following the "rules" of the church but I didn't really know Jesus personally. It wasn't until after high school when I began digging a hole for myself, constantly wrought with depression, addiction, and anxiety.

I reached a breaking point at about the 7 year mark after graduating where I believe I finally hit the bottom of the barrel. One night after a particularly difficult series of events, I got on my knees and called out to God. I asked him if he was real, and to show me. I begged for forgiveness for the way I sinned against him, myself and others.

The days that followed were what I can only describe as a miraculous revealing of God's peace on my life. Slowly I began feeling him everywhere.

My mentor and friend David Pendleton - Vent Haven Convention

I went to the Vent Haven Ventriloquist convention and met a man that I had known about since I was a kid through his ventriloquist content online. After a long late night conversation, David told me about Jesus to my curiosity. He explained how there was nothing I could do to "earn" God's love because God loved me unconditionally. All the work that needed to be done to bridge the gap between humanity and our Creator was done by Jesus on the cross. I was intrigued.

a couple months after that call out to God, I felt like I needed to give my life to the one who wanted it most. I made a vocal declaration that I would pick up my cross and follow Jesus. From that moment, all the chaos I felt myself surrounded by on a daily basis went quiet. I finally found the stillness I had been seeking my whole life through various fleeting outlets.

How could it be possible that someone could truly love me even with my track record? How can it be that I could be loved by the one who I shut out my whole life? It made no sense.

I am by no means perfect, and I still do things every day that hinder my ability to have a closer relationship with God, yet his grace abounds. He is good, he is eternal, and he is my savior. Because of those truths, I strive to be closer to him every day despite my shortcomings.

I didn't make this song or this blog post to preach at anyone, I am well aware of the ways in which the religion of Christianity has been forced on people and used to promote hateful sentiments, and prejudices. I write these things to tell people what God did in my life, so that if anyone ever feels like they are not good enough to be loved, or that there is no way out of that pit, that they know how untrue that really is.

God loves you, and I love you.